沉澱

回台灣以後,見了很想見的家人和朋友,抱了我的兩隻愛貓(他們一天起碼被我攻擊10次以上),吃了所有想吃的台灣食物後,真的有讓自己有沉澱下來的效果,我有了再出發的勇氣。

待在米蘭的最後那一段時間,總是有種不知所措的感覺,又慌又亂,靜不下心。對於未來覺得很茫然也失去了自信。回到家,就等於回到了原點,除了看到家人過的很好放了心,一邊在清理很久沒有人住的四樓和整理從義大利託運回來的六大箱行李,兩週時間就在一個接一個的面試中和老朋友們吃飯聚會中很快速地流逝。但在這短短兩週中,在混亂之中沉澱了下來,很多失去的感覺又被慢慢地喚醒,找回了重新開始的勇氣和衝勁。

離開了台灣這麼長的一段時間,再重新回到這個熟悉的環境,很多事情感受不一樣,現在我終於知道別人告訴我出國後無論住在哪裡總會有一股矛盾情懷的感覺。一個接一個的interview其實是很好的收心操,在一次又一次的自我介紹中,更深刻知道自己的能力與不足。還有當初為什麼要離開台灣,當時所設定的目標和對自己的期許,所以我仍要應該堅持並且執著於自己所追求的。

回國前一直讓我迷惘的是:找不到自己的方向和目標,到底什麼才是真正適合又可以走的長久的? 但是答案光是想是沒有用,很多時候過程中答案才會出現。礙於年紀和之前的工作收入,找工作時給自己很大的壓力,因為對於未來,我真的很心急。完成了MBA學位,卻還是覺得自己很渺小,成長進步的空間還很大,即使離開了學校,也要繼續充實讓自己持續成長,畢業並不是終點,而是人生中的另一個起點。

回到家,看清楚這陣子來的挫折,看到自己不知所謂地在逃避什麼而在原地踏步。台北是我長大茁壯的城市,回到這裡再充電,歸零從新出發。很高興回家了,不然沒辦法沉澱下來,看清楚下一步該怎麼走,雖也有點後悔,為何自己不能在歐洲再堅持下去努力找工作。人只能往前看,我現在人在台灣,並不代表我以後不會到國外工作,在台灣工作也不代表不能實現我成為國際工作人的夢想,未來沒有什麼不可能。只要堅持夢想,可能性就會一直延續下去!

當然,看到狂投履歷認真找工作的同學,陸續在歐洲拿到了他們想要的工作,也對我產生刺激的效果:)我要加油,幸運是給準備好的人,才能得到的禮物,我要讓自己準備好,迎向每一個可能的機會。

interview life (1)

I went back Taipei on 7th July. During these two wks, my life is mainly made of interview + meeting friends+ cleaning my flat (no one lives in this flat more than one yr...how dirty it is)＋ playing with two cats. I have no idea how long this interview life will go on, but I can't wait going back to the office. As money is always an important element of life. Money does bring some degree of freedom to life. Until now, I have finished 5 interviews. There is no good news yet.
Before MBA, I had less than 10 interviews. I really need more interview experience. So if I get the phone call or email from any company, I will just go for it. It seems interview become my job in this moment.

I am tired of introducing myself again and again and repeating what I did in my previous jobs during interview. But it is interesting to visit different companies and see how they proceed interview process.

Usually, the first step of a interview is to fill in application form. I notice some questions are unrelated to interview or should not be asked. For example, why should I present my family? Why do I need to tell you 1.do I have bank loan,2.how much do I pay for the rent, 3. how much is my monthly expense? What's the matter that if I live with my family and I have a house? Why should I tell you what is my previous salary? Does above questions really matter to my abilities to this job opening? They are very private data and totally none of your business!!! I really don't want to answer your question.

After filling in the application form. The second step is to have test (if the company is big enough). So far, I get the IQ test(math, Chinese etc), EQ test, English-Chinese translation, and business case study. Then is the HR interview. Usually HR will introduce the company and position and discuss the salary expectation with you. After HR interview, there are two possibilities. One is you have to wait for the notice for second interview; the other is to proceed the interview with your future boss.

So far, I have not met any job opening I am really interested in. But it is good to know the job market by doing interview. There are three or four more interviews this week. I am starting applying the openings which are really attractive to me. If I keep having so many interviews, in the end... I could become HR interview expert....then I will apply the position of HR..hehe :)

Home sweet home

最後一天(7月7號)在義大利,一個人等待飛機起飛前,眼淚控制不住的往外掉...這段漫長的旅程終於要畫下句點,終於要回家..Ciao, cara italia~
離開義大利,我沒有遺憾,MBA學位,旅遊,歐洲生活,戀愛,在外國公司工作實習...想得到的幾乎都得到(除了一份正式的工作),帶不走的是很多很多的回憶...閉上眼那一幕幕的場景

這17個月的國外生活,說長不長,說短不短,有高潮有低潮,有快樂和悲傷,開心的大笑,悲傷時默默地流淚,居住過熱鬧的城市和淳樸的小鎮,時間就這樣飛快地過了,終究是要說再見

義大利最後一晚過的很開心,有一群好朋友一起吃晚餐為我送別...
回到台北,家人好朋友開心地迎接我回家過生日,彷彿從沒有離開,感覺好暖
特別是我並沒有跟家人說我要回家,所以他們看到我忽然出現有被嚇傻 :)

體驗過澳洲和歐洲,我終於走出我的孤島
除了台灣的朋友家人同學們,還有在世界各地很多不能常相見的好朋友
人之間的牽絆不會隨著時空而消失,
不論距離,我都會努力去維持聯繫 :)
我了解'我.很.幸.福'..因為身邊的人,我的生活才有了意義

即使跟我的慾望不斷地打鬥著,大部分時間繞著自己的世界轉
對人生向來不滿足,但這股不滿足一直推著我往前走..
現在知道我不並是孤島...更可以放心向前走

下決心離開義大利,打包到上飛機回台北,中間沒有超過一個星期,符合本人一向衝動的風格
如果繼續待在義大利我會慢慢流失我的自信
此刻的我必須離開必須回到台北
回到原點,回到根,下一步怎麼走,未來要什麼?
需要有一個清楚的答案,答案沒有人可以給我,我要自己找

看著超乾淨無比光可鑑人的台北捷運
上星期我搭乘著帶著臭味的米蘭地鐵,小黑們賣力演唱的情景已褪色
走在路上也再也沒有Ciao Bella,
雖然我不喜歡觸碰別人的身體,卻很喜歡朋友見面和道別時的擁抱和親碰臉頰
在台北卻連握手都覺得有點尷尬
擁擠的街頭有熟悉的東方臉孔和語言
不需要再支支唔唔地講義大利文
不知怎麼地我卻有點孤單和落寞

我很開心,我回家了
Hi 台北,今後也請多多指教

I'm home @ taipei

I arrived Taipei yesterday from Italy. I'd like to meet my friends to have drink or something in Taipei, but I lost most of your contact phone numbers. If you r in Taipei, please contact with me. I would be more than happy to meet your guys :)