2006-12-22

雪梨生活紀事

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*海德公園內之可愛怪鳥,請注意它的嘴巴走厚唇風格 (Strange bird in Hyde Park. Take look at its funny beak.)

為了留學,選擇了雪梨當成基地,打算花三個月進行申請學校事宜,沒想到雪梨卻是終站了。
12/15晚上11:30,走出托福的考場,沒有所謂的輕鬆或愉快,心裡清楚即使聽力輕鬆過關,考砸的閱讀+普普之口說和寫作,應該沒辦法考到100分拿到獎學金。所以,接下來一個多月還是得和語言考試奮戰。回台後,1/21考多益+1/27考托福,只祈求三太子保佑,順利過關。考完考試11點半,難得沒有錯亂到東西南北左右分不清(有次考完要把歸還試場櫃子鑰匙,鑰匙在右手,卻伸出左手來還鑰匙)。對街的PUB震耳欲聾的音樂聲,連這頭的我都聽的見,有喝一杯啤酒的衝動。不過,沒有華服相襯,乖乖回家睡覺。

我的室友:兩個日本+六個韓國+一個台灣室友。房間外的陽台,是吸煙區,常有韓國人和日本人在那裡抽煙,在臥室內聽著他們一邊抽煙一邊聊天,有種到底身在澳洲還是亞洲的錯亂感? 我的飯店同事,因為是在洗衣部門,同事都是媽媽級的中年婦女居多,雖然本人向來深得媽媽或老人的喜愛,但下班後的生活真沒辦法建立起交集,畢竟媽媽的重心都嘛在家庭咧。

雪梨是個不夜城,夜晚很美麗,高樓、達令港、雪梨大橋、歌劇院交織出的繁華很令人沉醉,各個PUB中更是擠滿了酒客(澳洲人愛喝酒是無庸置疑地,從早上開始,Bar就有人在喝啤酒...餐廳午餐的餐桌上更是少不了啤酒,喝啤酒跟喝水沒兩樣。太愛喝酒的結果,澳洲有不準在戶外喝酒的法律規定!)。喜歡雪梨的活力,上班族和旅客快速穿梭在街道中,喧鬧聲不斷。喜歡雪梨的寧靜,在海德公園內可輕易地得到喧擾中的安靜,人們恣意躺在草地上看書、聊天、曬太陽。喜歡雪梨的文化氣質,市中心內有大大小小的美術館或藝廊可以讓你逛到腿軟。喜歡雪梨的動感,搭上渡輪半小時內抵達Manly或Bondi海灘,躍上沖浪板等待迎面而來的浪花。

我的雪梨城市生活是沉默。或者說,在澳洲我選擇了沉默。這樣的沉默,和在台北沒什麼兩樣,骨子裡就不是什麼太High的個性,感覺在參與什麼修行之類,好想從修行中畢業。安靜常是我的世界最佳寫照,一直嘗試打破這樣的沉默。極厭惡自身的敏感神經和人群建立了一道牆,看似粗枝大葉卻敏感,和人互動時在小細節中總會看到更深一層的情緒(或者說是人性?),感受到負面情緒時,往往阻隔了更進一步的關係發展,因為不知怎樣和負面情緒繼續交往。幸好在澳洲...這面牆好像越來越薄...相信有一天牆會消失!

寂寞和趨近公式化的生活壓地我透不過氣來時,想逃離雪梨這個城市...但卡在這個不上不下的時間點,又能去哪裡?有時環顧身邊人忙碌而喧鬧的生活,不喜歡也沒辦法營造出黏膩的關係,也不想參與遊戲。追求單純美感和簡單滿足,最簡單的東西,往往最難得到,想堅持我想要的!

沒展開預期澳洲流浪生涯就要回台灣,還很快地要展開另外一個里程,心情變很複雜,雖沒有剛剛收到入學許可時那麼紛亂,卻也還沒有調整好心態如何去面對另外一個國度的生活。可惜即將劃下句點的澳洲旅程,老天(或者是三太子?)幫我安排好下一個起點,我亦期待迎接下即將到來之狂亂義大利求學生活。

旅行或是流浪,只要探索世界的熱情還在,下一個時機點到來時,拎起行囊,隨時可變身成為背包客,我的旅程還會不斷延續著。

5 comments:

  1. Haha, that's not a strange bird. That's the very famous "Kookaburra". One of the icons of Australia!! The sound they make are like human laughter, which I find a bit annoying.
    http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kookaburra

    Good luck to ur life there!!

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  2. Hi, Nice to meet you ! I am Becky come from HK. I found your blog accidentally. It's nice of you to share your experience and feelings in australia through the blog. From you blog, I knew that you will go for studying in Italy and hope you will achieve your goal ! Could you give your email for me as I can talk to you by email sometimes ?

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  3. Forgot to say " Happy Merry Christams and Happy New Year " to you and all the people from all over the world !

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  4. To Josh,
    Thanks for telling me the name of that bird. I think I maybe heared its special laugher sound in the orange farm before. The laugher sound made me and my firends very angry, when we didn't have enough time to finish our picking.
    Merry X'mas and Happy New Year!

    To Becky,
    Nice to meet you. I already sent you my mail address to your mail(laibecky@hotmail.com). You can email to you anytime. Merry X'mas and Happy New Year!!

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  5. Merry Christmas!!
    Haha, the sound is really loud and will echo for a long time. It took me a while to realize that the noise comes from this little bird in the beginning. I worked as a wwoofer in a wilderness park while I was in Adelaide, that's how I learnt the name of those birds and animals.

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